one hundred thousand spirits around me
keep them close for when friends make you ugly
taking up arms, all this phantom weaponry
when the ghosts come they live all of this for me
vicious cologne all over my clothes
ill wash them again once i get home
or maybe just burn them then say its a joke
because its not the first time ive dealt with such smoke.
and i wonder what your mothers say
when i quit coming
when my name quit sounding
any way, they must say its a sin
and we’ve known this, seperate, since we were kids
i was never good at the games we’d play
and i’d give up, maybe, too easily
and i’d let you, maybe i’d let you win
and rule the radio
and adjust the stereo
but now i run and jump and stretch greater than
and would that we’d never touched, or anything
and never sitting, close enough to feel the heat your body made
then i wouldnt know how to miss it all that way
dampen the banister with a full glass of scotch
say you can’t remember anything without the hypnotist’s pocket watch
grasping for evidence like digging a face out of make-up
hands falling asleep waiting for your lover to wake up.
cleanliness and godliness and these floors are filthy
but you still hold your breath when you drive past the cemetery
eat fallen fruit from trees with limbs hanging over fences
and swear you can’t taste anything if your not wearing sunglasses
smiles all around you when your mood elevates
and cameras kept handy so you can see the look on your face.
it feels like the end of the century babe but it’s just the end of a decade. I remember this fervor and the desire for apocalypse and self defense. Imagine ourselves inside houses with boarded up windows growing our own food and loading our own guns and fending off the neighbors, ready for the knife-fight and pouring over maps by fire light.
So, I decided to start a blog today. I paid for this domain name mostly because i didn’t want all that wordpress business attached to the address. I figured it would be more taxing to post that long thing on other sites i’m involved with than a simple .com address. we’ll see if it’s worth it.